Margot Rudell: Featured Poet on San Francisco Open Mic Poetry TV, co-directed by John Rhodes and Clara Hsu

2140. Original Song: Not Polyamorous with lyrics, vocal melody, and vocals by Margot Rudell

2113. No Thanks, Again

Based
On what
You said,
I fear you
Would not
Support me
In sickness.
Your love
Would
Depend
On the
Condition
And health
Of my
Womb.
After that,
I would
Not
Matter
To you.

2105. Nuking You

I'm destroying
My hard drive
And reinstalling
The OS
To nuke
All memory
Of you

2101. It's Over

In the past,
I stayed
Way
Too long
In bad
Situations.
Never
Again.

2100. Access Denied

If you
Cancelled
Our first
Date
For no
Good
Reason
There's no
Season
In which
I'll see you

2099. The End

You don't
Care
About me
So from my
Perspective
This is
The end

2097. Sinking Ship

If you're
In it,
It's a
Sinking
Ship.
I'm not
Interested.

2090. You're Off the Hook

My father
Is an angler.
He taught
Me early
To quickly
Catch and
Release
Fish we
Wouldn't
Keep.

2017. It Gets Worse

Divorcing
Is worse
Than
Dumping
It's more
Expensive
And much
More
Stressful

2039.5. The Birth of Indifference: a Gift to Many Women

She gives gives gives gives gives

To you

Fierce husband

And what do you do?

You poke, prod

And criticize

With unloving eyes

Accusations fly

Condemnation, frustration,

Contempt,

Even hatred

Show their signs

A computer monitor

Moved two feet

Sparks his rage

A chair is thrown

The cabinet dented

A stereo whizzes past

Her head

A weighing scale

And all her books

Tumble down

The stairs

Her shoes

Carried to the basement

Have been stuffed

In garbage bags

Why

Should she allow herself

To feel perturbed

Beaten

The result, instead,

Is the inception

Of a new feeling

A longing

To be independent...

Free...

Love's opposing force

Isn't loathing...

It is indifference

With zeroed out

Emotion

Comes clarity

1907. Already Gone

You took me
For granted
One too
Many
Times
Now I'm
No longer
Available
For you
To lose


Dating, Dumping

1539. Unburdoned Man

You are
The most
Loving person,
He said
Painfully,
And I
Am ready
To implode
With upset.
I don't feel
For you
What you do
For me,
He continued,
Visibly relieved
To unburdon
Himself
Of his load
Through
Confession.


Dating, Dumping, San Francisco

1507. Not What He Expected

I hadn't
Thought
Through
What you
Would
Feel
As I
Dump you
Was his
Unprompted
Response
To my
Simple
Reaction
In one word:
OK.


Dating, Dumping, San Francisco

1495. Unhappy Ending

From an ex:
I'll know it
When I see it
And you are
Not it


Dating, Dumping, San Francisco

1482. The Weather

He to me:
I've had
A cloud
Hanging
Over me.
You seem
To have
All these
Feelings
I don't
Share.
Now there.
I feel
Better.
How about
This
Fine weather
We've been
Having?


Dating, Dumping, San Francisco

1500. Silicon Valley Dump

From a computer whiz
To me:
Your feelings
Were at level four
And mine
Only at level two
With that
Mismatch
Our relationship
Is through


Dating, Dumping, San Francisco

980. Tant Pis

You will
Never be
The man
For me
Because
You treat
Me
As a low
Priority


Dating, Dumping, San Francisco

1187. Public Announcement

A man sends
A Facebook
Announcement
To all
His thousands
Of acquaintances
Changing
His relationship
Status
From In Relationship
To It's Complicated,
Signaling all of them
Before the woman
Who loved him.
She's just part
Of his social
Experiment.


Dating, Dumping, San Francisco

1173. Act Fast

Mr. Wrong
Will waver
And waffle.
The first
Time
It happens,
Wave
Goodbye.


Dating, Dumping, San Francisco